actually i sometimes wonder..

what is the purpose of me living on this earth..

i really do not know..

it seems like it's pointless to live on this earth..

without a purpose..

and it's just like living aimlessly..

the life we want to live is controlled by fate..

the fate is controlled by decisions..

and this decisions are made by us..

therefore, our life are controlled by ourselves..

but without a purpose..

how do we know what decision we must make..

anyway..

there's 1 thing that i know i'm living for..

and thats.. HER..

and this may be the purpose..

maybe not..

i don't know..

and this don't know is purpose or not thing..

i made a decision on it..

and it's to love HER forever..

i don't care what other people around me says..

be it good or bad..

i will not regret this decision of my..

i don't dare to request too much of HER..

cause i know..

the higher the hope/ request..

it will lead to higher disappointments..

i'm also human..

i can't stand disappointments..

anyway..

i'm happy just to see you happy..

remember that day u cried?

i so much wanted to console you..

but you say you want to be alone..

so i left you alone..

but do you know that in my heart..

im hurting..

haiish..

maybe you don't even care..

i don't know and i don't wish to know..

i only want you to know that..

no matter what happens..

i will always be there for you..

if you need me..

i willing to share your burden..

only if you willing to give me the chance..

if you want to cry..

i will lend you my shoulders..

if you want to say out your problems..

i will lend you my ears..

if you feel like hitting someone..

i will be your punching bag..

i know that people who see this will say im stupid..

i don't care..

i only care for YOU..

as the days passed by..

i often wondered why..

why do I love you..

i really don't know..

sometimes..

my day feel so dull and boring

but because of your cheery smile..

you made my day seem so worthwhile..

i..

will..

****..

you..

for..

as..

long..

as..

i..

live..

i know this is stupid..

but that's the fact..

a fact which i want you to know and understand..

-do u care..?i wish to know..